Let's Start [Again & Again]
A writing that I have kept for years because I never had the courage to face up to my own demons within. Today it felt right. My heart felt the need to share because somewhere, someone may be going through what I did. Everything is going to be OK. Let's start again...For EM. This new year I woke feeling just like another other day. I practiced, trained and did things like I would normally do. I was bored with the notion of new year resolutions (perhaps it is a 'age' thing) - start excited only to fall off the wagon halfway through. Sometimes it feels like a vicious cycle, running on a hamster wheel, feeling like a never ending process. I can blame it on COVID19 but I refused to because personally I am not a fan of excuses. Either I do or I don't. There is no in-between. I pulled out the past three years of diaries / notes and started looking through them. I saw a repeated patterns. I saw myself through my writings, my thoughts, my desires, my dreams, my ups and downs,...
