Rainbow in the Storm

It happened a week ago whilst I was driving to a family dinner. It was pouring - one side of the sky was covered with dark clouds, strong wind and yet on the other side it was sunshine and bright. Amongst it all I saw a huge rainbow spread across the sky - like a bridge between both sides. Ironically it was an incredibly beautiful sight.

"That's how my life feels right now. And I'm loving it." I remembered myself saying that out loud and I knew I was being 100% honest and truthful. I am feeling that emotion even right till this moment as I recalled that scene in my head. I am OK with it. 

For a long time I have always chased perfection, wanting and needing things to be right and organised. This trait while has brought me a lot of achievements, has also gave me a ton of frustration and angst. Recently I have noticed it no longer resonates with me - the revised version of me after witnessing and recognising that I can learned from the chaos as much as from perfection.

Like this post was written over a span of two days with so much turbulences in between the 48 hours. I laughed and cried. I was calm and frustrated. Duality, the fluctuation of the mind and emotions and yet I am still OK. I survived and most of all, I am learning to be grateful more than ever. This is the best Christmas present I can ever gift to myself.

Find that rainbow of yours. Learn to find small bits of happiness and gratitude in every chaos. It is a bad moment, not a bad life. Embrace the ups as well as the downs. That's life - the co-existence of turbulence and peace all in one space. Merry Christmas!