Are You Addicted To Your Problems?

The first time I read about this concept, it was a bewildering moment. A wake-up call. A rude but necessary call to what I was doing to myself. It was a heart wrenching moment.

For a long time I was addicted to 'losing weight' because I was 'programmed' to think that in order to be loved, I had to be a certain shape. It was a reason that I had used for a long time. It was a deep rooted belief from childhood which I had later on discovered to be totally wrong. A wrong way to love myself and earn love from others.

If we become what we focus on, then by choosing to focus on losing weight, it implicates that I had weight to lose. I was telling myself I was fat to begin with. I was focusing on the problem instead of the solution. I was literally self-sabotaging.

While acknowledgement is the first step to resolving any issues we have, the next step is more crucial. The golden 'WHY'. Why is it important for change to happen? For me it was 'ENOUGH'. I had enough of my own false beliefs keeping me in a constant spiral. For a long time the feelings kept being recycled. I would thrive for a moment only to be spiralling downwards and each time I fell harder. I was addicted to my problems but not resolving them.

Who would I be without my problem because life can't be perfect right? But what if the problem is no longer an effective measure of my evolving life? I needed a change. I needed to write new stories. I needed new problems that will elevate my life. Then perhaps addiction isn't a bad thing after all, it's what we choose to focus on that matters. 

Now my weight loss days are over. I am focusing on building a lifestyle involving self love and mindfulness. I stopped using food as a weapon against my self worth and value. I have learned to love myself first and earn my own respect by honouring my words through my actions. 

Look out for the next upcoming post on the Seven Steps to Actions.

"Words without meaningful actions are simply the mind 'gossiping' and passing time." ~ The Daily Practise