How Many Times Do We Need A Reality Check?
It's the year end. Christmas is around the corner. It should be all festive with happy endings. Another year gone by and it's time for reality check. I just got a reality 'slap' and it's a much needed one. Truth is I am getting too many of these moments too often recently. It's the snoozing sound that never stops, buzzing me to do something.
This time Gary John Bishop did it to me. I saw his book for some time but never picked it up. The title stuck to my head vividly (hardly surprising right?). So when I asked myself how can I unfu*k myself, this popped up in my memory cell.
I am not sure which is more painful - his intense Scottish accent, his cursing when he wants to make a point or the truth that came from his mouth (did I mention it's an audio book?). Clearly the truth hurts and I feel so busted! It feels like I am finally getting caught after years of 'stealing' from myself. I am defenceless against the truth. It's like another layer of my (many) masks has fallen off and I can't hide behind it anymore (really?).
It was not the happy ending to the year but one I needed. We don't always get what we want, we get what we need. Or more recently I have learned that we get what we deserve. Either way it was a BIG moment for me.
My mind is so blown away right now. It may sound unreal but sometimes we listen but we don't hear it until we are ready. I wouldn't be writing this blog post (trust me, I wanted to wait till later to write it!). I would be dwelling in self-pity. I would drowning in my sorrow, wondering why and never gotten anything done. BUT I refused to because the 'slap' was tight and intense. I have to take action regardless of how I feel (according to Gary).
I can't say I have all the answers to the questions I have been pondering for the past year (yes it has been an intense year!) but something has shifted unlike previously. Something sunk in for me. Something is shaking inside of me. Something is calling me back to examine the 'root' of my turmoil for the longest time. Gary has opened up the floodgate of the next level (ironically that's what I have been 'asking' for) and I will be looking forward see what's coming next!
This is probably the best Christmas present I could ever asked for!
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I am not sure which is more painful - his intense Scottish accent, his cursing when he wants to make a point or the truth that came from his mouth (did I mention it's an audio book?). Clearly the truth hurts and I feel so busted! It feels like I am finally getting caught after years of 'stealing' from myself. I am defenceless against the truth. It's like another layer of my (many) masks has fallen off and I can't hide behind it anymore (really?).
It was not the happy ending to the year but one I needed. We don't always get what we want, we get what we need. Or more recently I have learned that we get what we deserve. Either way it was a BIG moment for me.
I can't say I have all the answers to the questions I have been pondering for the past year (yes it has been an intense year!) but something has shifted unlike previously. Something sunk in for me. Something is shaking inside of me. Something is calling me back to examine the 'root' of my turmoil for the longest time. Gary has opened up the floodgate of the next level (ironically that's what I have been 'asking' for) and I will be looking forward see what's coming next!
This is probably the best Christmas present I could ever asked for!
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